You Gotta Get The “Want To”

Colossians 1:13-14:  He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of His beloved son in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.”  ESV

Do you ask the Lord for the tools that you need to accomplish things?  And I mean everything your heart desires to do or you have been called to do?

If you are called to do a job, don’t you ask the Lord to help you do it efficiently with His help?  No? Yes?  Don’t think on something that you know you should do for years without asking Him to give you “the want to.”  If you do, you will not succeed in the way you hoped and you may suffer more than you could ever have imagined.  Pain manifests itself in so many ways.

My father was a sick man.  He was physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally ill when I was growing up.  I dreaded a day when he didn’t take his tranquilizers.  It was either black moods, bleeding ulcers, or temper tantrums that kept me from sleeping at night.  He was rude to my mother and made our lives very hard.  He had a heart attack and died right after I turned fifteen years old.  But something happened that last year before he died.

Our small church in middle Tennessee had a 24 hour family prayer chain.  Each family had to take an hour and pray at our church in the sanctuary.  He had just started going back to church a few months earlier when we took our family time.  I watched him come out of the church with his face “glowing”.  I knew God did business with his heart that night.

Although I was happy, I was still angry at all the years he fought God, caused stress and tension and then died.  I stayed angry for another 13 years until one day I took a chair in my kitchen and pretended that he was there and I talked with him audibly and asked him to forgive me and I told him I loved him.  I needed that closure to end that chapter of my un-forgiveness.  I now believe my Daddy will be in Heaven when I get there.  I did want to do that for a long time, but when I did it, I meant it.  But if he had still been alive I am not sure when I would have done that.  And if I had missed out on years of relationship it would have been sad.

I have recently been on a journey re-examining my life, my goals, my inner thoughts, and my personality/behavior traits.  Just because I am a Christian doesn’t say that I don’t have wounds that still need to be healed, that I don’t have forgiveness I still need to extend, and all kinds of “Jesus adjustments” to be made.

I also realize that I need to ask Christ for the “Want to” to go forward and obey.  I cannot be released from old baggage, introduced to new life, and keep growing to touch others if I do not seek the work of the Redeemer.  One part of this new life is “Forgiving”.

No matter how deep the wound, how big and tough the scab, Christ paid the price for ALL sin.  He forgave us.  We must forgive them!

For more on “Forgiveness” go to:

http://joannfore.com/forgiveness/

or on Face Book:  “Write Where It Hurts” with Jo Ann Fore.

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5 thoughts on “You Gotta Get The “Want To”

  1. Dear Mary, thanks for dropping by today. i wanted to let you know that I really enjoyed this post for the message and also for the truth of your story that you share so honestly with us.

    i pray that YHWH continues to keep and bless you as you continue to br transformed into the image of His Son. xxxx

  2. Thank you for sharing this – the raw heart of it. To forgive someone who s gone beyond our reach is so very hard. And you have such a voice for sharing this message. Bless you.

  3. I like that you bring up that even though you are a Christian, you still need work. Too many people think that being Christian means they have to be perfect. I applaud you for realizing that. God bless you in your journey of re-examining your life.

  4. What a beautiful post Mary, yes I do run about my day and forget to talk with Jesus and ask for his help as I should..we are quick to do this when something is wrong. I want to do it more when all is OK.I am so happy that your Dad had that conversion and that you had your closure, it is only human to have been mad and hurt because of the bad years, I am just thankful that you are coming to terms with it and you will be happier for it. thanks for sharing
    Paula O

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